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Sun, May. 24th, 2015 04:55 am



Life's a changin'




    Dear Lj,
  It's been seven hours and 15 days...ok,it's been years.
Quick summary--the kid is now 20, going into her Sophomore year at a private college, pre-med.  She's grown into a funny, goofy, free spirited woman.
The weekend of May 1 my husband moved out and we're beginning the process of a very amicable divorce.  Ridiculously amicable. I'm proud of us.
  Now, it's me and The Dude...Dude is my mentally challenged, 62 year old cousin. We have one pug, Pugsey, the oldest of the three.  Einstein, the one with tongue, died in February, 2015.  Charlie, the middle pug is now in Virginia with my mom, step dad and brothers.
 Over the past three months, I asked for a divorce, separated my household items,  had my husband move out, lost my favorite pug, joined Weight Watchers and lost 30lbs, have been working out, met someone, Kids car was vandalized by her crappy ex girlfriend so we bought a new car for her and I'm sure some other stressful stuff that I'm forgetting.
  I'd like to find my type of crazy;  I want it all.  I want laughter, sex...lots of sex, I want kink, I want kissing, hand holding, awesome communication, coffee in the mornings, adventures during the free time.  I want no walls, I want honesty, I want my heart to feel safe with someone who is ready to be an active team player in an awesome partnership that makes our lives more complete with each passing day as we tackle the curve balls life throws at us, together.  What's so hard about that?...finding someone that wants the same thing (who the fuck wouldn't want that?!) ..and that's my type of crazy.  Met someone that I thought might have been a good fit but, I haven't the slightest idea what he thinks or feels about me.  That fact pretty much tells me he doesn't think or feel much about me at all..and it's made me insecure.  What can I not stand? Insecurity.  I am a strong, independent black woman, I don't want to feel insecure, it's not me.  I am not a pussy.  Anyway-That's going to end, he's already distancing himself from me, and I'm going to be sad about it, because I like the grumpy ass.

  With all that, i think it's time to write again...I need my blogging therapy. Not sure if I'll do LJ or use a blog that i started but haven't used, but this is at least a start in moving forward with it.

Current Mood: high high
Current Music: Mogwai-Take Me Somewhere

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