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13 May 2008 @ 11:00 pm
 
This is pretty accurate!


You entered: michelle raye fxxxxxx

There are 19 letters in your name.
Those 19 letters total to 90
There are 7 vowels and 12 consonants in your name.

What your first name means:
Hebrew Female Close to God. Feminine form of Michael: Who is like God? Gift from God.
French Female Feminine of Michael: gift from God.

Your number is: 9

The characteristics of #9 are: Humanitarian, giving nature, selflessness, obligations, creative expression.

The expression or destiny for #9:
The expression that you exhibit is represented bythe number 9. Your talents center in humanistic interests and approaches. You like to help others as you were intended to be the 'big brother or big sister' type. You operate best when you follow your feelings and sense of compassion, and allow yourself to be sensitive to the needs of others. You work well with people, and have the potential to inspire. This suggests that you could successfully teach or counsel. Creative ability, imagination and artistic talent (often latent) of the highest order are present in this expression. It's possible that you're not using or developing all of these capabilities at this time. Some of your talents may have been used at an earlier time in your life, and some may still be latent. Be aware of your capabilities, so that you can make use of them at appropriate times.

If you are able to achieve the potential of your natural expression in this life, you are capable of much human understanding and have a lot to give to others. Your personal ambitions are likely to be maintained in a very positive perspective, never losing sight of an interest in people, and a sympathetic, tolerant, broad-minded and compassionate point of view. You are quite idealistic, and disappointed at the lack of perfection in the world. You have a strong awareness of your own feeling as well as those of others. Friendships, affection, and love are extremely important.

Undeveloped or ignored, the negative side of the 9 expression can be very selfish and self-centered. If you do not actively involve yourself with work that benefits others, you may tend to express just the opposite characteristics. It is your role to be very involved with other people and their needs, but it may be difficult for you achieve this role. Aloofness, lack of involvement, and a lack of sensitivity mark the low road of this expression.

Your Soul Urge number is: 4

A Soul Urge number of 4 means:
With the Soul Urge or Motivation number of 4 you are likely to strive for a stable life. You tend to follow a rather orderly pattern and systematic approach in your endeavors. You have an inner desire to serve others in a methodical and diligent manner. You want to be in solid, conventional, and well-regulated activities, and you are somewhat disturbed by innovation and erratic or sudden changes. Excellent at organizing, systematizing, and managing, you have a way of establishing order and maintaining it. You are responsible, reliable and in the final analysis, practical. Highly analytical, you can see your way through all sorts of situations and generally have a clear understanding of the issues. You are a very honest, sincere, and conscientious individual.

The negative side of the 4 is rigid, stubborn and somewhat narrow-minded. There is a tendency to hide feelings, or to really not be aware of real feelings. Avoid being too rigid and stubborn in your thinking, and try to always see the big picture rather than becoming to involved with the detail. Don't be afraid to take a chance once in awhile.

Your Inner Dream number is: 5

An Inner Dream number of 5 means:
You dream of being totally free and unrestrained by responsibility. You see yourself conversing and mingling with the natives in many nations, living for adventure and life experiences. You imagine what you might accomplished.


http://www.paulsadowski.com/Numbers.asp
 
 
Current Mood: calm
 
 
Michelle
11 May 2008 @ 02:15 pm
 
Happy Mother's Day to all the mama's and to the father's that play the role of mama.
And my thoughts are with those of you that have lost your mother's and have a difficult time with this day.



We had planned on going up to Cades Cove, but the weather keeps looking like it might storm, so the Boo Boo and I are just spending the day together.  Apparently on Mother's Day I can get away with hugging and kissing her without her bitching at me!!! I like it!! ;)
 
 
Current Mood: content
 
 
Michelle
08 May 2008 @ 01:53 pm
 
Good golly, the cravings, they hurt.

Big Ed's Pizza...I could eat a large right now, all by myself...throw in a beer while we're at it.
Peanut butter pie...oh yes, I'd eat that whole thing too.
Lobster, crab, shrimp...just keep bringing me more.

I'm gonna eat my cat if i don't fulfill these needs soon. 

Today I test drove a hybrid for my mom that she's bidding on.  Wow, so frigging quiet when it runs on battery.  I'm going to start looking at some of the larger ones/suv, and see what type of mileage they get, etc.  There is no way I can make do with a little car with all the people I've got, plus dad's wheelchair.  I've been wanting to sell the van for awhile now but have been holding off waiting to see what was happening with gas.  Glad I didn't buy a Trailblazer like I wanted to.  Steve called me today during lunch and mentioned a hybrid truck he's interested in. 
Speaking of which, it's sweet that he calls me during lunch and his breaks..but it kind of drives me nuts.  I'm not a phone talker.  I live with him.  Unless there's a specific reason, I don't think he should call so much.  And the only reason he does call is to tell me he loves me...I know so many chicks that would love to have a guy tell them that non-stop, but I'm not one of them.  I get it. love you too, I understand, don't need to hear it twenty times a day.  Maybe one day I won't be so easily annoyed by other humans. ;)
 
 
Current Mood: tired
 
 
Michelle
07 May 2008 @ 06:44 pm
 
I drooled on his autograph.



















 
 
Michelle
07 May 2008 @ 05:44 pm
NIN in Tennesse, Ohio and Michigan, secured.  
So this new pre-sale system that the band has started should totally come with Xanax.  Holy heck that was a rough thirty minutes.  I was on Yahoo Messenger with two of the people I'll be traveling with and one had a hard time getting a floor ticket for Ohio, which was the last one we had in our order of purchasing.  All three shows went on sale at 5pm today.  So we were quite anxious.  Most of the shows have been selling out in less than ten minutes from what I've read.  Damn fanatics.  Managed to get all of them after many site problems.  I'm pretty sure this aged me a year or so.  ;) Also got our hotel reserved for Voodoo Fest in New Orleans.
I FRIGGING LOVE TO TRAVEL AND GO TO CONCERTS!!!   I'm so thrilled I'm able to do this.  I did it briefly a couple of years ago and loved it and did it on the thought of you only live once.  So, since I'm still living, I'll keep doing it!!! MWahahahah. 
This was the last of ticket purchases.  Thank G-d.  Now to start paying this crap off.
I was talking to my friends about having something like this made for our mini tour:

Ohio )


Michigan )

Tennessee )
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Michelle
07 May 2008 @ 10:56 am
I'm enjoying the moment.  
For the past two hours, I've had a box sitting next to me that was delivered to the house.
In the box is the Ultra Limited Edition Nine inch Nails set I ordered.  One of the items in the box is signed and numbered by Trent Reznor, along with many other goodies.  I haven't even opened it yet.  I just look over at it and smile.  Wonder how long until I break down.  It's kind of like long, slow sex that builds up to a huge orgasm.  Good stuff. ;)
I just looked online to see if I could find a picture, the highest bid for it so far on Ebay is $510.00. Not that I'm selling mine...
 
 
Current Mood: cheerful
 
 
Michelle
06 May 2008 @ 05:03 pm
NIN in Duluth, secured.  
Thank you for your order. Please find your order details and pickup
instructions below.
8/13/2008
Nine Inch Nails, Gwinnett Center
Number of tickets: 2,
GA Floor All Ages
Ticket Delivery: Will Call

Total Service Fee: 20.40 (USD)
Total Delivery Cost: 0.00 (USD)

Total Ticket Cost: 133.40 (USD)


**THE CUSTOMER WHOSE NAME APPEARS ON THE TICKETS MUST ATTEND THE EVENT
AND PRESENT A VALID PHOTO ID TO PICK UP THEIR TICKETS AND FOR ENTRY.
NO NAME CHANGES ARE ALLOWED AT ANY TIME FOR THIS EVENT**


**YOU WILL RECEIVE FURTHER INFORMATION REGARDING THE SPECIAL ENTRANCE**

These were even more than the last ones!!! I'm going to be broke by the end of tomorrow.
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Current Mood: chipper
 
 
Michelle
05 May 2008 @ 08:17 am
New NIN album released today-For Free!!!  
For anyone interested, NIN released a new album today, it's completely free for download.  Sign up and they send you a link.
I've only heard one song from it, Echoplex, which I liked a lot.


http://dl.nin.com/theslip/signup
 
 
Current Mood: awake
 
 
Michelle
04 May 2008 @ 03:44 pm
 
Good times last night.  Went out with Cindy and Beth to celebrate Cindy's birthday.  Couldn't decide where to go, so wasted almost TWO hours trying to find someplace.  But we laughed the entire time, so it was fun.  Finally decided on a Mexican place and drank sangria and munched food and flirted with the cute waiter that ended up being 22 years old!  Thought he was checking me out but once I found out how old he was, decided I reminded him of his mama. ;)
After that we got a huge jug of sangria from the store and hung out outside drinking and laughing. 
Came home,  got some action.  Went to bed at 4am.
Btw, if you don't have sex for awhile, it's amazing how virginally tight the burger is.  Yeah, I did say that. ;)


Erynn made it to DC ok.  Didn't get to talk to her long, so hopefully tonight I'll get more info from her.

I forgot to mention , REM and Stone Temple Pilots are the other headliners besides NIN for Voodoo Fest. REM!!!!!!! Very cool.
 
 
Current Mood: happy
 
 
Michelle
02 May 2008 @ 11:45 pm
 
SO tired!!
Had date night with Steve, we stopped by [info]hilltop's opening night at an art gallery.  Within 15 minutes of us getting there the place started to fill up and Steve (That's hilltop's name too :P) was in the middle of a bunch of people talking to him, so I said good bye to his wife (Who looks just frigging fantastic!) and told her to pass on my good byes and good lucks and went on my way.   The gallery was cool , artist Steve had two of his own walls, and was very well one of the more unique artists there.  His stuff is even more cool in person.Very cool to see people admiring his work and seeing him surrounded by fans of his work..  We had intended to stop by again before closing time, but apparently once you start walking in the city, you don't return for hours.  I've never really walked around downtown Knoxville before.  We went to Market Square and checked out the stores there, one of which had [info]hilltop's art on display.  Lots of groovy shops there.  The Knoxville Symphony Orchestra was playing in the square, so we checked them out for a bit.  Then headed further down and checked out some of the theaters, stores, etc and ended up totally starving at the hookah bar where we pigged out on food from the Middle East.  Stuck around until they brought out the hookahs, and Steve smoked one for a bit, not too much later I had to get out of there, my nose starting running like crazy! Got to see one belly dancer do her thing.  Then hiked back the mile or so to the car and it was already past ten. 

Colored my hair today, and took a lovely picture of myself trying to die my eyebrows. I'm seriously rocking some major steroid swelling.  I'm so puffy.  Even my face, the one thing besides my ankle that's fairly normal sized is a marshmallow now. :/  I'm looking at a couple of months before it goes away.  I hate what those fucking things do to me.  :(

We're up at 5 something tomorrow so Erynn can head out to Washington DC.  Oy.  A trip without me.  I'm going to be a nervous wreck.
 
 
Current Mood: tired
Current Music: Echoplex_NIN
 
 
Michelle
02 May 2008 @ 03:32 pm
VooDoo Festival  
It's official, I have a Nine Inch Nails addiction that's spiraling out of control.

You purchased 1 ticket to:
_____________________________________________________________________________________________
Voodoo Experience
New Orleans City Park, New Orleans, LA
Multiple Dates and Times

Seat location: section GENADM
Total Charge: US $ 118.25
 
 
Current Mood: chipper
 
 
Michelle
02 May 2008 @ 01:35 pm
 
I got my BlackBerry Curve today.  Holy Shit!!! It's the BOMB.  I had an older BlackBerry, but this sucker.,..just wow!!! I LOVE IT!!!! So much that I'm going to buy the data plan each month..I think.  ooooh, poor LJ peeps, that means posting via the BB and uploading photos! Mwahahahah.
 
 
Current Mood: ecstatic
 
 
Michelle
01 May 2008 @ 09:20 am
 
Ew, Ew, Ew!!!!!

McDonald's truly sucks.  I just had a sausage egg mcmuffin and hash browns and it didn't even taste like food.  I used to LOVE eating that.
My mouth feels like I just swished oil around in it. 

The men in my house are retarded. (Well, besides the two that are truly that way :P)
I took Erynn shopping yesterday for new gym shoes.  My dad and Steve were looking a them saying how big they are.  There isn't a 13 year old girl in the world that wants to hear that she has big feet.   The kid is 5'8", her feet are the right size for her height.  I swear most men don't think before they spew shit from their mouths.  It amazes me every.single.time.  Penis=not thinking before opening mouth.

Tonight she has an outdoor performance at the park for band. (Need to check the weather, it looks like rain is coming)
Tomorrow she's headed to the aquarium in Gatlinburg, then Saturday she's off to Washington DC until Tuesday night.  Yesterday she won a math competition.  Woohoo. :D
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Current Mood: tired
 
 
Michelle
30 April 2008 @ 05:09 pm
Let the touring begin!!!!  
Got in on pre sale for NIn in Lexington KY

Thank you for your order. Please find your order details and pickup
instructions below.
8/31/2008
Nine Inch Nails, Rupp Arena
Number of tickets: 2,
General Admission All Ages
Ticket Delivery: Will Call

Total Service Fee: 19.60 (USD)
Total Delivery Cost: 0.00 (USD)

Total Ticket Cost: 109.60 (USD)


**THE CUSTOMER WHOSE NAME APPEARS ON THE TICKETS MUST ATTEND THE EVENT
AND PRESENT A VALID PHOTO ID TO PICK UP THEIR TICKETS AND FOR ENTRY.
NO NAME CHANGES ARE ALLOWED AT ANY TIME FOR THIS EVENT**


**YOU WILL RECEIVE FURTHER INFORMATION REGARDING THE SPECIAL ENTRANCE**
 
 
Current Mood: jubilant
 
 
Michelle
29 April 2008 @ 01:42 pm
This just isn't right...  
This makes me uncomfortable.  This is Hulk Hogan rubbing lotion on his daughter Brooke's ass.  Now why couldn't she rub it on herself? I have huge birthin' hips and an ass that could feed a small nation if it was BBQ'd and even *I* can reach my own butt cheeks.







(Photo from dlisted.com)
 
 
Current Mood: sleepy
 
 
Michelle
28 April 2008 @ 08:46 pm
New Orleans  
I know some of ya are familiar with New Orleans.  Know of anyplace I should stay at that's decent priced, for Voodoo Fest? NIN, REM and STP are headlining.  Purrrrr.  Of course, with gas prices it may not happen, but I'd like to reserve a room now just in case.
(It's held at City Park)

And any of ya going?  I've always wanted to attend it.  I haven't been in NOLA since 91 I think.  Love that place.  Might have to take a few extra days to play in the French Quarter, etc.
 
 
Current Mood: full
 
 
Michelle
28 April 2008 @ 01:19 pm
 
Still recouping from Saturday/Sunday, I could sleep all day long today.  It's overcast and rainy...perfect lump around day. 
I'm pretty sure at some point I'm going to have to be productive, but for now I'll lay here and be hungry and horny.
 
 
Current Mood: exhausted
 
 
Michelle
24 April 2008 @ 12:43 am
he owes me forty grand  
reposted from myspace


Today, I saw karma in action.  I can't recall the last time I smiled such a big smile.

Pat, the sperm donor, is a liar.  The biggest liar I've ever known.  He's always been that way.  Used to be little stuff, then bigger stuff, then stuff that just didn't make any sense.  Now that Erynn is older, she has sadly had to witness this.  It really sucks when you see someone fall down from the pedestal you've put them on.  But most parents deserve to be up there. He does not.

Pat moved here in 2006 to be closer to our daughter.  Since then, he's lied to her, stood her up, ignored her and has maybe seen her ten times a year.  He has done his absolute best to make sure that I have to pay for therapy one day so the kid will have decent adult relationships.  No child should have to ever feel like their not number one to their parents.  Pat has never, ever, shown Erynn she was number 1.

  I can look at him and feel nothing but disgust and hate,.  He's harmed and emotionally abused the one person I love the most in the world. 

So today...we had to appear in court for child support.  Pat claims he's been paying me child support on a regular basis for years.  Pat knows, and I know, that's bullshit.  If a man can't call his child at least once a month, he certainly isn't trying to help with their needs.   Anyway, I got there at 8:30am, and sat there until noon, surrounded by the scum of the earth.  What a nasty place.  Kids crawling on the ground, parents ignoring them, people sharing jail stories...I felt like I was sitting in the middle of a crowd of people that were in court for felonies, not child support.  Pat showed up roughly twenty minutes late.  I didn't look at him.  Being in the same room was difficult for me.  I can honestly say if they didn't have police patrolling the waiting area, I would have become one of the scums around me and went Kung Fung Phooey on his ass.  After two hours, I found someplace else to hang to calm down.  They broke for lunch at noon before hearing our case, and told us to come back at 1:30.  Pat comes to my area and makes comments like "can you believe this shit"..and all I can think of  is if he was smart, he would run.  I believe I gave him a puzzled look because I was seeing a dead person talking to me. 
Came back after lunch, waited some more.  Not quite sure who's running the show over there, but what a screwed up system.
Finally get called back and we have to swear to tell the truth, blah blah blah..Only one of us managed to do that.  Pat presented a wad of money orders that were supposed to be child support he sent me.  He had quite a few. I was expecting him to do this since he's paid every one of his bills with money orders, for years. He's that dumb that he blows money on money orders rather than getting a checking account..oh wait, he can't manage a checking account because he bounces checks as often as he farts.  So, we have to go through this pile that he has sworn was child support.  Funny, if I had the money he claimed to have sent me, why would I be sitting in court room with him?? He's such a good father he presented money orders in three different amounts all made on the same day! Lil 
I love how one month he sent me a thousand bucks...yet he had nothing to do with us the majority of that year.  Or, the money orders for 212.83 dollars, because that's what you would send someone, right? So the judge is questioning him and basically discarded half of his pile.  He gave him more credit towards back support than I agreed with, but honestly, watching Pat lie again and again and again and hearing the Judge call him on it, was well worth the four grand he gave him credit for.  That's the thing about people that are compulsive liars, they lie so much, they forget what's the truth and what's a lie, then when they have to remember what they said, they can't remember it correctly.  (At least the dumb ones) 
Then Pat said how he can't afford to live here because he doesn't make much money and he's been giving so much of it to me.  I've gotten $175 TOTAL over the past year,  that's where his wages have been garnished.  He's supposed to pay more than that from his tips. (He's 35 and a waiter, and will always be a waiter,..he has no further ambition or skills and he lacks the ability to succeed)..but that average of fifteen bucks a month  is breaking him.
 Here's a thought, get a real, full time job lazy ass.  Put down the pipe and video games, stop texting chicks for action and grow.the.fuck.up.  I know, it's a shocking thought.  But try it, you would probably stop being such a little bitch boy if you did!
So back to court..a year ago I had agreed to a reduced amount of child support monthly thinking the smaller amount was something he could come up with and wouldn't overwhelm him.  He never bothered to pay any of it other than the garnishment I mentioned earlier.
 Our last court date a couple of weeks ago, he was going to go to jail, but he produced a decent chunk of moolah and I agreed to not have his ass turned into dinner for a bunch of big men. 
 So for the retro amount of support, I wanted the full amount he's supposed to pay, not the discounted amount that he didn't bother to even make an effort with.  Plus, he's done nothing but hurt and lie to Erynn pretty consistently the past year. 
Judge wasn't going to do it, until I said I wanted to hold off and do a wage review (thankfully da mama read up on this stuff), Judge decides to do it for the full amount,
Pat now owes back support of $40,000.00

I'll never see that money and the amount of back support will grow with each passing month that he doesn't do what he's supposed to.  Pat gets pulled over a lot, he drives like a drunk 16 year old that's brain damaged.  So, I see Pat in jail many, many, many times within his future. He also will lose his license and won't be able to get a passport to travel out of the country.  Plus lots more. 

And for the first time in my life, I'm thrilled at the endless miserable things that will happen to another human.  Maybe it's because I don't see him as human??

Erynn sent him an email the other day basically saying, hey dad, remember me? I see you're sad (his myspace mood) betrayed, dumped, hurt(over a chick)...welcome to my life.
She went on to say other things, all very honest and blunt.  Of course he didn't reply to her.  I don't think he knows what to say? She's already smarter than he is, knows his "methods"..he has nothing left to "play" on her. 

After court, he was driving next to me, and I just faced forward with a big grin and held up my left middle finger the entire time.

May you continue to reap what you sow Patrick Demers.  And I hope that every harm you've caused my daughter happens to you over and over and over again, until you're heart is so broken and bruised that all  you can do is sit in a corner, a lonely old man, with nobody by his side.

You are dead to me.
 
 
Michelle
23 April 2008 @ 07:34 am
 
Woke up with a killer migraine.  The thought of going to court this morning makes me want to hurl. 
 
 
Michelle
22 April 2008 @ 11:04 pm
 
Happy Earth Day!
Didn't do anything special for it, we compost, recycle and watch our electric/water usage daily.

For the first time in months, I cleaned up most of the house. It took me around five hours to get the den, kitchen, hallway and bathroom done, along with some laundry. I still have the living room and bedrooms to do. Holy shit was this place full of dust. Thank G-d for my mask. And I took an air purifier into each room with me as well to help since I was kicking up SO much dust. I'm just floored how trashed this place was.
Got the pugs shaved today as well, that will help cut back a lot as well.
This has been the most productive I've been in a long time.
I did have one major fuck up though. This morning I went to blow my nose, and when I inhaled, the tissue was in front of my mouth and I guess a small piece was stuck to it, and I inhaled it right in. Ew. Death by Puffs Plus....of all the crappy luck. ;)

Erynn was in today's paper. She was chosen as one of the students that demonstrates the skill of patience. Which is great..but I'm surprised she didn't get skill of caring, integrity or truthfulness instead. Those are her strong points.

Tomorrow is back to court with DeadBeatSpermDonor. Steve will be working so I'm on my own. I'm still having overwhelming feelings to kick his ass. Maybe if he doesn't run away like the little bitch boy he is, I'll kick him in the nuts or something. Good G-d that would make me SOOOO happy.

Here's another view of the waterfall I posted the other day.  Totally need to get out and get some shots I'm happy with.
I'm still learning this camera..read two pages in the manual so far!!!

 
 
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